missing you and loving you out of nothing at all~

yes..i admit that~
i miss my family and him and my hubby a lot...
miss my loved ones a lot,
with my hubby included..
my mum called me this evening..
and she's already make me feel at ease a bit...
love you so much mum~

but him...
he's not calling yet...
i'm waiting like there's no tomorrow here..
he's far away..
separated by the distance and space..
by the south china sea....
i admit,
love makes you like at the top of the world
but to go through it, makes you in so much pain,
like falling down to a floor and hurt yourself..

i'm longing for his voice,
for his smile,
for his gaze while looking at me....
remembering him already made me cry..
aiyaaaaaaaaahhhhhh~

please make him call...
but how???

i should just go to study and focus!
okay...wish me luck!
(and let him call me a.s.a.p...
coz i need him now...)

p/s: and i'm hearing bryan adams-please forgive me...~
.:::please forgive me, i can't stop loving you:::..

Vivacious Time At the Beach!~

after some hardships and busiest time at campus..
finally, we went to the beach-Tanjung Aru!
have so much fun there..hehehe
so many things,
and so many events happened at that time...
but i don't want to say more...
hehehehe~

i don't like our class' situation right now..
why???
coz everyone keeps on keeping their feelings themselves
and slowly killing every one of them~
including me perhaps ~
if you love someone, or hate someone..
just tell the truth!
(right????)
i want to help,but i don't know how..
so i just let it be,
and wait for the next~

so much fun, yet so much secrets~
i wonder how i can handle this...
coz it's slowly killing us too~

btw...MQA files waiting, good luck for me then~
huh~

Please....need a break!

Yup..I do need some break...
from what??
hmmm...from everything~
luckily we're going to beach this afternoon..^^
hehehehe..
by the way, he called last night~
after missing him so much,
my tears flowed, but i didn't let him know..
he'll call, whenever i feel bad,
or miss him badly..
as if he knows...i know he can feel it,
huhuh...^_^

and when i miss so much~
at one time,~
i will get fever,
huh~
and it get worst when he's away~
haiyaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

really need a break,
and i'll only get it for real when
he's back to me~
dear, call me back please...

I'm irrevocably miss you~

Salam Maulidur Rasul~

Assalamualaikum...
salam maulidur rasul to all..^^
always selawat for Rasulullah...
may we got his syafaat~

it's public holiday..
so I'd spent my time today with surfing internet and find some stuff for SS, blogging, facebooking and stalking~
STALKING???
hehehe..kind of,
my buddy and I were currently wondering on something,
thus, we stalked on one of our friend's blog..
just want to find the truth, 
of whom he like the most, hehe~
he's a super nice guy,
women's dream guy..
yet, the path leads to nowhere...


xda keja ne, hahah~

Love...1 litre of joy, pain and tears~

Love..
what is love to you??
consist of alphabets L.O.V.E ~
maybe for..
Lunatic Observation of Vivacious Earthling???
Aaawwwwhhh..
of course not!
love...
i don't know how to say~
it's hard to describe through words,
it's like rojak....mixed with different things, feelings and experiences~
feel it yourself...
with Allah, family, friends, or maybe lovers...
But with love,
this feeling makes me happy,
makes me put all effort in everything I do
and I love myself too..
just the way I am~

love..
it's all about this 1 litre of mixed things
like what I'm feeling right now~

i love someone....and i do love him so much..

i love him with all my heart

love him with all my soul

we've been experienced many things together

and sacrificed many things to make "US" real..

he makes me happy,

he makes me smile everyday,

he makes me miss him when he's away

gives me tons of pain of missing him every single night and day

or misunderstand about something,

and makes me let my tears out

for all the sacrifice, the hardship because of me

or because of him

or makes me sad and sometimes, upset~

the most of all,

he makes me love him unconditionally every single time...

but still, i'm afraid..

i'm afraid to lose him

cause all my feelings left in my heart after the top 3,

(Allah, Rasul and Family)

already given to him~

i don't know why

i'm afraid to love until now~

even though i'd found one,

my other half~

and the most of all..

i'm afraid if this can be the main reason 

that cause me to lose him..

NO!

please Allah.....let our bond lasts for eternity,
let our dreams come true
and bring us to Your "siratul mustaqim"
and make us happy for life~

Dr. Mahathir's Request, and Future Generation's too~

I've got this article from the Star, and I was attracted to it..

 Dr M: Divided Malays risk facing a dim future

KUALA LUMPUR: The Malays will remain weak and their future dim if they continue to be divided by different political ideologies, said former prime minister Tun Dr Mahathir Mohamad.
He said the Malay community is in a weak position because they are now divided into three groups, namely Umno, PAS and Parti Keadilan Rakyat (PKR).
“The present situation will inevitably affect our future,” he said at a “Discourse with Tun Dr Mahathir Mohamad on the Malays and Their Future” held at the Tun Hussein Onn Memorial, here, on Monday.
Dr Mahathir said Malay unity was challenged the first time with the setting up of PAS, a breakaway group from Umno.
“However, we could still control the political situation in the country then, but many (from Umno) who were disappointed later formed other splinter parties like Semangat 46 and PKR.
On how to unite the Malays, Dr Mahathir said: “It’s easy, knock Nik Aziz (Kelantan Menteri Besar Datuk Nik Abdul Aziz Nik Mat) and Anwar (PKR de facto leader Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim) on their heads because they are the ones who brought the disease”.
Dr Mahathir also described the efforts to unite the Malays as coming to a dead end as the two leaders had no desire to see it happen.
“Their intentions are just to secure a place, Anwar with his intention to capture Putrajaya while Nik Aziz is an opportunist,’’ he said.
“When we were poor and weak and had no status, we knew that only unity could give us strength. But today, when we are better off, some feel there is no need for unity; so we end up fighting among ourselves,” added Dr Mahathir.
The former premier said there were also Malays who were so confident of being able to stand on their own that they rejected the New Economic Policy which was created to assist them.
“There are those who say there’s no need to be identified with the Malays, that ‘we are Malaysians, we can reject efforts to help us, we want to throw away the crutch and we want to stand on our own’, without realising that they are still ‘limping’,” he said.
On the issue of Malay supremacy, Dr Mahathir said Malays need not continue claiming that they were “masters”, when in fact they were the “servants” of others. — Bernama

To be exact, what the former minister want is o gain back our unity as a powerful Malay race.. Like he said before,
'Melayu Mudah Lupa'..
Yes, some of the Malays and Bumiputras forgotten their roots, their history..
Their ancestor's effort to get Independence, and many lives were lost
to get what we have now.

I'm not going to be a politician, I won't.
I'm a person who loves her nation, her country,
and history~
I will continue this someday, just wait for the next article..~