Grim And Evil~

I'm starting to hate her..
I don't know why, because it's not me to hate others..
Yet I know she doesn't like me too.
I knew it, just from her eyes...
They show enviousness, anger, and hatred...
I wonder why??
Why she has that look?
That look that makes me feel to hate her too.
I have a hunch if people have certain issues about me..
If they started to not like me..
Am I that annoying lately??
I don't think I am...

Women's monthly issues???
I don't think so..
But if she hates me so much,
because of if she felt that I took her best friends from her,
it's okay...
I will go...
No one wants me anyway...
Let me live as the way I am,
Let me live,
with people who love me,
and cherish me..

Hope she will happy~
If dissapear from her life can make her hatred vanished~
Ever~

 

Just A Dream.....~

like it very damn much!!~^^

(Sam Tsui)
I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes; it was only just a dream.
(Christina Grimmie)
I travel back, down that road.
Will you come back? No one knows.
I realize, it was only just a dream.

(Sam Tsui)

I was at the top and I was like I’m in the basement.
Number one spot and now you found your own replacement.
I swear now that I can't take it, knowing somebody's got my baby.
And now you ain't around, baby I can't think.
I shoulda put it down. Should have got that ring.
Cuz I can still feel it in the air.
See your pretty face run my fingers through your hair.

My lover, my life. My baby, my wife.
You left me, I'm tied.
Cuz I know that it just ain't right.

(Together)
I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Will you come back? No one knows.
I realize, it was only just a dream.

(Christina Grimmie)
When I'm ridin I swear I see your face at every turn.
I'm tryin to get my usher on, but I can let it burn.
And I just hope you'll know you're the only one I yearn for.
No wonder I'll be missing when I'll learn?

Didn't give you all my love, I guess now I got my payback.
Now I'm in the club thinkin all about you baby.

Hey, you were(was) so easy to love. But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough.

I'm goin through it every time that I'm alone.
And now i'm wishin that she'd pick up the phone.
But she made a decision that she wanted to move one.
Cuz I was wrong...

(Together)
And I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Will you come back? No one knows.
I realize, it was only just a dream.

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you're wishing you could give them everything (everything)
Ohhh, if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
(if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.)
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
(if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.)
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.

I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes (open my eyes); it was only just a dream (it's just a dream).
I travel back (travel back) (i travel back), down that road (down the road)(down the road).
Will you come back? No one knows (no one knows).
I realize, it was only just a dream (No, no, no...).

And I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes (open my eyes) (open my eyes); it was only just a dream (it's just a.. it's just a dream).
So I travel back, down that road.
Will you come back? No one knows.
I realize (i realize), it was only just a dream
(baby, it was only just... it was only just a dream)

Nooo... Ohhh...
It was only just a dream.

Finally!!~ Macdepp's pressure is over!!

Hahahahahhaha...yeah! Finally done with all these kind of chaos in the making of Macdepp! (and the dramatization itself)~ huhu
I feel so happy with it. And Alhamdulillah, praise to Allah...
It's a success...
They're many positive comments and reviews from lecturers, TESL seniors and even some of the important guests that were invited by the lecturers.
Even the foreigners who came (our lecturers' friends maybe) love it.
Yes, we should be proud with it,
since it's our first Macbeth (in this case, Macdepp) dramatization, and it's one of the William Shakespeare's masterpiece,
of course the expectation would be high~
plus, we changed the setting, and the culture (even the names) without spoiling its originality..
can you believe how the pressure is???
I believe the whole cohort (even the lecturers!) felt it..a lot!

Oh, here's the poster by the way~

I was not performing on stage, yet I manage the costumes.
I worked in the costume group for this play.
Huh, very busy...for days and nights we designed the costumes,
Seew the costumes and even helped the actors and actresses to wear their costumes properly..
We ran here and there at the backstage,
manage their make-ups, and etc...
tired, yet it gives me all the pleasure I need in working with all this stuff..
plus, I love to design clothes and drawing,
yet I HATE sewing....
and I have to do it! huhuh~
I sew the 3 murderer's costume, the shaman and many more..
And my friends in the group,
Kudos for them all!!
It's easy to work with them!
Thanks a lot guys!

I can say this dramatization is a success,
because of the teamwork of the whole cohort,
and the teachings, advices and managing stuff from the lecturers...

Overall, AWESOME!!!~^^

Teacher's Day~

To all teacher's, Happy Teacher's Day!!
hehehehe~

(Gosh, my entry is getting shorter~huh~~)

Not So Happy~~

So many things happened today..
Feels that I want to cry, yet I can't~~
Dunno what to say now...

Can't wait for tomorrow, I'm coming home,
and have some time for myself~~

No Subject~ :-D

 

Many things happened when I'm with you,

Bittersweet moments, all we've been through..

As long as I'm here, as long as I breathe, as long as your love is true,

I'll always with you, loyal with you, be there with you

through thick and thin..

I love you.
I have always loved you, and I will always love you.

Happy Mother's Day!~

Happy Mother's Day to my mum, and also to all mothers over the world..~
My mother is my everything, and I won't be here without her..(and also my daddy)~ heeee~

I love her homemade dish, especially rendang and Satay sauce..
they are the best,
I love her beautiful smile, coz my smile is just like hers (hoho~)
I love her controlling attitude, coz the attitude forbids me from doing negative deeds and be a good daughter (I am?) hehe~
Love her non-stop advices, coz they guide me throughout my 21 years of living..
and I love her because she's very understanding, and stand with my attitude..
In simple words,she's everything to me and..

I LOVE YOU MAMA~

Menunggumu-Zhifilia~

I like diz song..somehow..huhuhu...(jiwang mode)
but I don't like a part of the lyric, which I highlighted it~

Menunggu sesuatu yang sangat menyebalkan bagiku
saat ku harus bersabar dan trus bersabar
menantikan kehadiran dirimu
entah sampai kapan aku harus menunggu
sesuatu yang sangat sulit tuk kujalani
hidup dalam kesendirian sepi tanpamu
kadang kuberpikir cari penggantimu
saat kau jauh disana
ooo…

*)
Gelisah sesaat saja tiada kabarmu kucuriga
entah penantianku takkan sia-sia
dan berikan satu jawaban pasti
entah sampai kapan aku harus bertahan
saat kau jauh disana rasa cemburu
merasuk kedalam pikiranku melayang
tak tentu arah tentang dirimu
apakah sama yang kau rasakan

reff:
walau raga kita terpisah jauh
namun hati kita selalu dekat
bila kau rindu pejamkan matamu
dan rasakan a a a aku
kekuatan cinta kita takkan pernah rapuh
terhapus ruang dan waktu
kupercayakan kesetiaan ini
akan tulus a a ai aishiteru

Bridge:
saat ku sendiri pikiran melayang terbang
perasaan resah gelisah
jalani kenyataan hidup tanpa gairah
o…uo..
lupakan segala obsesi dan ambisimu
akhiri semuanya cukup sampai disini
dan buktikan pengorbanan cintamu untukku
kumohon kau kembali

Highlited part: Don't ever think about this, if you're loyal enough..huhuh~

Self Reflection: Cinta Time Study???~ OK ke KO??

Assalamualaikum...
B4 I proceed, forgive me for my 'Rojak' language after diz k, huhuh~

Okay...my grandma, mum n my dad slalu kata...
blajar dlu...jgn nk berkawan-kawan..( bhs halus org lama)
tp hehehe...anak mama n bpa + cucu nenek ne xdgr cakap...
ada jga wajah rahsia hati ne, hehehehe...*blush*
mama somehow support gak..(somehow, I guess..)
myb coz he's a good guy, huhu..
or just menjaga hati anak perempuan mama nan sorg ne, huhu..
sayang la ngan mama..bapa pn sayang gak,
garang2 bapa pn sbb sayangkan anak perempuan bapa ne kn, hehehe^^

mama slalu cakap..
JANGAN CURANG! (support la tu ea??? huhuhu)
for him, and for me...kapel2 gak,
tp study jgn tggl beb..study mesti EXCELLENT!
jgn kecewakan harapan family yg menggunung,
batas agama kna jaga...dh la xda ikatan..
syaitan di mana2, bahaya..~
Saling ingat-mengingati ttg salah silap..
somehow, yup..
cinta time study is OK..if it's in the right track..
and have the right person..
it motivates you to be better, to put your extra effort to improve yourself..
depending on the person's persona..

Yet, some people, lalai bla bercinta...
sudahnya, cinta ntah ke mana,
study ntah ke mana...ke laut plak jadinya...
haaaaa...part ne I x ska...
mintak dijauhkan, nauzubillah..
keep me in your siratul mustaqim (jalan yang lurus), Ya ALLAH~
takut gak lau jadi camni,
sbb tu la blajar rajin2...
dah la ak bkn dlm golongan yang genius kan...
yet at least have the effort to study..
I have been given a good mind, a good health, and Allah memudahkan rezekiku utk terus belajar..
and also having the ability think critically, so I'm able to generate brilliant ideas..
that's why I love to enhance my general knowledge,
to improve myself..^^

InsyaAllah...
selagi aku masih bernafas, aku akan terus menuntut ilmu..
Cinta bukan satu alasan utk lalai dalam study, yet it's good to a certain degree..
depends on how I handle it...
lau ada jodoh, Alhamdulilah...
be positive je..
semuanya in Allah's hand, redha, tawakal and berusaha aja...
I've read something from a book, (I can't remember the title)
sometimes,Allah tiadakan jodoh kita dgn seseorg,
adalah kerana Dia tidak tahan melihat kita terus bergelumang dengan maksiat..
and menambahkan dosa...
and InsyaAllah, kita akan berjumpa dengan org yg lebih baik..
Tapi...ak selalu berdoa..
kekalkanlah aku dgn wajah rahsia hatiku yg sekarang ne...
the 'Adam' that I have now,
coz dh byk dugaan, cabaran n pengorbanan yg telah kami hadapi utk spi ke tahap ini~
and kami dah buktikan,
Wlupun kapel, still kami x berhenti berusaha utk success dlm hidup,
berjaya masuk IPT (Alhamdulillah..), be a teacher yang akan berbakti kepada anak bangsa satu hari nanti (InsyaAllah)..
and for him,a policeman that will serve his country through thick and thin..
Bukan menunjuk, jauh sekali riak..
tapi terus bermotivasi utk terus mengorak langkah utk berjaya dalam kehidupan,
not only in the world, yet also in the Hereafter, InsyaAllah...

So
Cinta time study, OK ke KO???
depends on yourself, on how you argue it..
tepuk dada tanya selera~^^

P/s : Doakan kesejahteraan kami, and our family, and our friends as well.. Appreciate all your prayers so  much!^^~