Ku Cinta Padamu, eceh~~

it's been a long time since I did not post anything in this blog..
bkn apa...MALASH! huhu
anyway, ada apa dgn tagline diatas??
jiwang erlebih?? yeah..somehow, heeeeeee~~

anyway, I suddenly remembered a drama that touched my heart for quite a LOOOONNNGGG time ago..
a telemovie actually to be exact...
entitled 'Cinta Bukan Di Atas Kertas'...

it's about a true love relationship between a mute Chinese + handsome to the blast guy named Ben (Ng Hung Shen) and a normal Malay girl Nida (Rebecca Nur Al Islam). Their relationship was forbidden by both of their families due to differences of religion, race and ability.
yala...sorg Chinese guy yg berasal dr fmly Chinese opera yg sederhana n bisu (wlupun hensem tahap gaban) n sorg lak Malay girl yg normal+ lawa n anak org berada..
what do you expect?
in real life pun confirm this kind of relationship will be forbidden right, wlupun xla suma...

it's really touched my heart, especially yg last part,
when Ben was tried to make Nida get her memories back..and make her remember him...
that part makes me cry...
well, since Nida hlg ingatan (n dia bisu slps kmlgn tu), dya nyanyikan semula lgu favourite Nida-Ku Cinta Padamu,
guna bhs isyarat..
result- she gained her memories back n she confessed to Ben that she love him too..

for me, it's very sweet for Ben to never give up on Nida..seriously.(wlupun cuma drama)

and i don't know, is there any guy would love to do n sacrifice like Ben for the girl he loves??

~Ng Hung Shen- Ben~

This story is not only about true love, it's also about love does exists in whatever condition, and whoever you are..

never judge people based from race, religion and etc...

right~~

Rabecca Al-Islam as Nida

P/s: hope RTM ulg balik cite ne..best oo...upload kat website ke, huhuh~

Grim And Evil~

I'm starting to hate her..
I don't know why, because it's not me to hate others..
Yet I know she doesn't like me too.
I knew it, just from her eyes...
They show enviousness, anger, and hatred...
I wonder why??
Why she has that look?
That look that makes me feel to hate her too.
I have a hunch if people have certain issues about me..
If they started to not like me..
Am I that annoying lately??
I don't think I am...

Women's monthly issues???
I don't think so..
But if she hates me so much,
because of if she felt that I took her best friends from her,
it's okay...
I will go...
No one wants me anyway...
Let me live as the way I am,
Let me live,
with people who love me,
and cherish me..

Hope she will happy~
If dissapear from her life can make her hatred vanished~
Ever~

 

Just A Dream.....~

like it very damn much!!~^^

(Sam Tsui)
I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes; it was only just a dream.
(Christina Grimmie)
I travel back, down that road.
Will you come back? No one knows.
I realize, it was only just a dream.

(Sam Tsui)

I was at the top and I was like I’m in the basement.
Number one spot and now you found your own replacement.
I swear now that I can't take it, knowing somebody's got my baby.
And now you ain't around, baby I can't think.
I shoulda put it down. Should have got that ring.
Cuz I can still feel it in the air.
See your pretty face run my fingers through your hair.

My lover, my life. My baby, my wife.
You left me, I'm tied.
Cuz I know that it just ain't right.

(Together)
I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Will you come back? No one knows.
I realize, it was only just a dream.

(Christina Grimmie)
When I'm ridin I swear I see your face at every turn.
I'm tryin to get my usher on, but I can let it burn.
And I just hope you'll know you're the only one I yearn for.
No wonder I'll be missing when I'll learn?

Didn't give you all my love, I guess now I got my payback.
Now I'm in the club thinkin all about you baby.

Hey, you were(was) so easy to love. But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough.

I'm goin through it every time that I'm alone.
And now i'm wishin that she'd pick up the phone.
But she made a decision that she wanted to move one.
Cuz I was wrong...

(Together)
And I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Will you come back? No one knows.
I realize, it was only just a dream.

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you're wishing you could give them everything (everything)
Ohhh, if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
(if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.)
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
(if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.)
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.

I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes (open my eyes); it was only just a dream (it's just a dream).
I travel back (travel back) (i travel back), down that road (down the road)(down the road).
Will you come back? No one knows (no one knows).
I realize, it was only just a dream (No, no, no...).

And I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes (open my eyes) (open my eyes); it was only just a dream (it's just a.. it's just a dream).
So I travel back, down that road.
Will you come back? No one knows.
I realize (i realize), it was only just a dream
(baby, it was only just... it was only just a dream)

Nooo... Ohhh...
It was only just a dream.

Finally!!~ Macdepp's pressure is over!!

Hahahahahhaha...yeah! Finally done with all these kind of chaos in the making of Macdepp! (and the dramatization itself)~ huhu
I feel so happy with it. And Alhamdulillah, praise to Allah...
It's a success...
They're many positive comments and reviews from lecturers, TESL seniors and even some of the important guests that were invited by the lecturers.
Even the foreigners who came (our lecturers' friends maybe) love it.
Yes, we should be proud with it,
since it's our first Macbeth (in this case, Macdepp) dramatization, and it's one of the William Shakespeare's masterpiece,
of course the expectation would be high~
plus, we changed the setting, and the culture (even the names) without spoiling its originality..
can you believe how the pressure is???
I believe the whole cohort (even the lecturers!) felt it..a lot!

Oh, here's the poster by the way~

I was not performing on stage, yet I manage the costumes.
I worked in the costume group for this play.
Huh, very busy...for days and nights we designed the costumes,
Seew the costumes and even helped the actors and actresses to wear their costumes properly..
We ran here and there at the backstage,
manage their make-ups, and etc...
tired, yet it gives me all the pleasure I need in working with all this stuff..
plus, I love to design clothes and drawing,
yet I HATE sewing....
and I have to do it! huhuh~
I sew the 3 murderer's costume, the shaman and many more..
And my friends in the group,
Kudos for them all!!
It's easy to work with them!
Thanks a lot guys!

I can say this dramatization is a success,
because of the teamwork of the whole cohort,
and the teachings, advices and managing stuff from the lecturers...

Overall, AWESOME!!!~^^

Teacher's Day~

To all teacher's, Happy Teacher's Day!!
hehehehe~

(Gosh, my entry is getting shorter~huh~~)

Not So Happy~~

So many things happened today..
Feels that I want to cry, yet I can't~~
Dunno what to say now...

Can't wait for tomorrow, I'm coming home,
and have some time for myself~~

No Subject~ :-D

 

Many things happened when I'm with you,

Bittersweet moments, all we've been through..

As long as I'm here, as long as I breathe, as long as your love is true,

I'll always with you, loyal with you, be there with you

through thick and thin..

I love you.
I have always loved you, and I will always love you.

Happy Mother's Day!~

Happy Mother's Day to my mum, and also to all mothers over the world..~
My mother is my everything, and I won't be here without her..(and also my daddy)~ heeee~

I love her homemade dish, especially rendang and Satay sauce..
they are the best,
I love her beautiful smile, coz my smile is just like hers (hoho~)
I love her controlling attitude, coz the attitude forbids me from doing negative deeds and be a good daughter (I am?) hehe~
Love her non-stop advices, coz they guide me throughout my 21 years of living..
and I love her because she's very understanding, and stand with my attitude..
In simple words,she's everything to me and..

I LOVE YOU MAMA~

Menunggumu-Zhifilia~

I like diz song..somehow..huhuhu...(jiwang mode)
but I don't like a part of the lyric, which I highlighted it~

Menunggu sesuatu yang sangat menyebalkan bagiku
saat ku harus bersabar dan trus bersabar
menantikan kehadiran dirimu
entah sampai kapan aku harus menunggu
sesuatu yang sangat sulit tuk kujalani
hidup dalam kesendirian sepi tanpamu
kadang kuberpikir cari penggantimu
saat kau jauh disana
ooo…

*)
Gelisah sesaat saja tiada kabarmu kucuriga
entah penantianku takkan sia-sia
dan berikan satu jawaban pasti
entah sampai kapan aku harus bertahan
saat kau jauh disana rasa cemburu
merasuk kedalam pikiranku melayang
tak tentu arah tentang dirimu
apakah sama yang kau rasakan

reff:
walau raga kita terpisah jauh
namun hati kita selalu dekat
bila kau rindu pejamkan matamu
dan rasakan a a a aku
kekuatan cinta kita takkan pernah rapuh
terhapus ruang dan waktu
kupercayakan kesetiaan ini
akan tulus a a ai aishiteru

Bridge:
saat ku sendiri pikiran melayang terbang
perasaan resah gelisah
jalani kenyataan hidup tanpa gairah
o…uo..
lupakan segala obsesi dan ambisimu
akhiri semuanya cukup sampai disini
dan buktikan pengorbanan cintamu untukku
kumohon kau kembali

Highlited part: Don't ever think about this, if you're loyal enough..huhuh~

Self Reflection: Cinta Time Study???~ OK ke KO??

Assalamualaikum...
B4 I proceed, forgive me for my 'Rojak' language after diz k, huhuh~

Okay...my grandma, mum n my dad slalu kata...
blajar dlu...jgn nk berkawan-kawan..( bhs halus org lama)
tp hehehe...anak mama n bpa + cucu nenek ne xdgr cakap...
ada jga wajah rahsia hati ne, hehehehe...*blush*
mama somehow support gak..(somehow, I guess..)
myb coz he's a good guy, huhu..
or just menjaga hati anak perempuan mama nan sorg ne, huhu..
sayang la ngan mama..bapa pn sayang gak,
garang2 bapa pn sbb sayangkan anak perempuan bapa ne kn, hehehe^^

mama slalu cakap..
JANGAN CURANG! (support la tu ea??? huhuhu)
for him, and for me...kapel2 gak,
tp study jgn tggl beb..study mesti EXCELLENT!
jgn kecewakan harapan family yg menggunung,
batas agama kna jaga...dh la xda ikatan..
syaitan di mana2, bahaya..~
Saling ingat-mengingati ttg salah silap..
somehow, yup..
cinta time study is OK..if it's in the right track..
and have the right person..
it motivates you to be better, to put your extra effort to improve yourself..
depending on the person's persona..

Yet, some people, lalai bla bercinta...
sudahnya, cinta ntah ke mana,
study ntah ke mana...ke laut plak jadinya...
haaaaa...part ne I x ska...
mintak dijauhkan, nauzubillah..
keep me in your siratul mustaqim (jalan yang lurus), Ya ALLAH~
takut gak lau jadi camni,
sbb tu la blajar rajin2...
dah la ak bkn dlm golongan yang genius kan...
yet at least have the effort to study..
I have been given a good mind, a good health, and Allah memudahkan rezekiku utk terus belajar..
and also having the ability think critically, so I'm able to generate brilliant ideas..
that's why I love to enhance my general knowledge,
to improve myself..^^

InsyaAllah...
selagi aku masih bernafas, aku akan terus menuntut ilmu..
Cinta bukan satu alasan utk lalai dalam study, yet it's good to a certain degree..
depends on how I handle it...
lau ada jodoh, Alhamdulilah...
be positive je..
semuanya in Allah's hand, redha, tawakal and berusaha aja...
I've read something from a book, (I can't remember the title)
sometimes,Allah tiadakan jodoh kita dgn seseorg,
adalah kerana Dia tidak tahan melihat kita terus bergelumang dengan maksiat..
and menambahkan dosa...
and InsyaAllah, kita akan berjumpa dengan org yg lebih baik..
Tapi...ak selalu berdoa..
kekalkanlah aku dgn wajah rahsia hatiku yg sekarang ne...
the 'Adam' that I have now,
coz dh byk dugaan, cabaran n pengorbanan yg telah kami hadapi utk spi ke tahap ini~
and kami dah buktikan,
Wlupun kapel, still kami x berhenti berusaha utk success dlm hidup,
berjaya masuk IPT (Alhamdulillah..), be a teacher yang akan berbakti kepada anak bangsa satu hari nanti (InsyaAllah)..
and for him,a policeman that will serve his country through thick and thin..
Bukan menunjuk, jauh sekali riak..
tapi terus bermotivasi utk terus mengorak langkah utk berjaya dalam kehidupan,
not only in the world, yet also in the Hereafter, InsyaAllah...

So
Cinta time study, OK ke KO???
depends on yourself, on how you argue it..
tepuk dada tanya selera~^^

P/s : Doakan kesejahteraan kami, and our family, and our friends as well.. Appreciate all your prayers so  much!^^~

~introvert mode, activated~

Originally, I am an introvert person,
I really am.
The one that keep all the things for herself,
and seldom share her problems or part of her life to anyone.
Even to my my dad, and sometimes my mum.
My abang, he already knows about the introvert me, huhuh~
even there are some other things I didn't tell him, he already knows without ME telling him.
we have some sort of connection, and I know if he keep something from me.
So do him.


Still, only these people know all the things about me.

My friends, oh..I'm extremely introvert to them.
There are so much things that they didn't know about me.
before, I wanted to let them know many things about my life
and I let them for a while..
yet, recently today,
I decided to close the door,
and let them know some other things
that I decided to let them to know.
and only the things that they can see..

It's not that i'm afraid to express myself,
or didn't want to share my problems, or my life to others,
it's just that...
it's better to keep it to myself..
i know in psychological side,
it's not good for myself...
yet it's better for me....
keep myself mysterious in certain aspects of me,
and get personal.

From now on, introvert mode..
~~ACTIVATED~~

Takkan Pernah Ada....~

Dia memang hanya dia
Ku s’lalu memikirkannya
Tak pernah ada habisnya
Benar dia, benar hanya dia
Ku s’lalu menginginkannya
Belaian dari tangannya

Mungkin hanya dia
Harta yang paling terindah
Di perjalanan hidupku
Sejak derap denyut nadiku
Mungkin hanya dia
Indahnya sangat berbeda
Ku haus merindukannya

Ku ingin kau tahu isi hatiku
Kaulah yang terakhir dalam hidupku
Tak ada yang lain hanya kamu
Tak pernah ada
Takkan pernah ada

Benar dia, benar hanya dia
Ku s’lalu menginginkannya
Belaian dari tangannya
Mungkin hanya dia
Indahnya sangat berbeda
Ku haus merindukannya

Ku ingin kau tahu isi hatiku
Kaulah yang terakhir dalam hidupku
Tak ada yang lain hanya kamu
Tak pernah ada
Takkan pernah ada

Ku ingin kau selalu di pikiranku

Kau yang selalu larut dalam darahku
Tak ada yang lain
Hanya kamu
Tak pernah ada
Takkan pernah ada...^_^

 

 

 

Contest 4??~

Hmmm??? Contest?? Haha..just try it~ cambest ja...
I was tagged by Ummi Nadirah, so try aja laaaaaa...hehehehe

sebagai plengkap syarat,,aku post la jgk ne banner knun... =)

* Empat perkara yang menggambarkan anda...

   -Very sensitive, yet depends on the thing la..

   - Mature enough as a 21 years old girl..

   - Loves serenity..

   -Very hard to fall in love (seriously..the guy who took my heart is very lucky)~

* Empat nama manja...

   - Hanis (Family and Sabahan members)

   - Reen (Jenanians/ Peninsula n Yayasan Sabah friends)

   - Kak (My 2 brothers n my juniors in former school)

   - Nur (good name..hehe)

* Empat perkara baik yang kamu buat hari ini...

   - adviced my friend

   - held myself from bursting my anger (somehow, I pissed off a bit just now)

   - given 4.0 in evaluation..(huhuh)

   -responded kindly to the 'poker face' person that made me upset

* Empat tempat yang nak sangat pergi...

   - Mekah

   -Kedah Darul Aman (My former school in Jitra)

   - Danau Toba (largest volcanic crater lake- wanna see it!)

   - Lembah Danum (The Lost World of Sabah and the oldes forest in the world)

* Empat benda yang wajib bawa bila keluar...

   - Handphone....In case my family n my hubby calls~ =)

   - Kad Pelajar....in case if I want to watch movie, hehe =)

   - IC..

   - and of coz, MONEY!!

* Empat perkara terakhir kamu buat sebelum join contest ni....

   - Posted something at FB...

   - bought some food =D

   - chit-chatting with my friends

   - answered my hubby's phone call =D

* Empat orang paling kamu sayang di dunia ne....

   - My Mama 

   -Bapa~

   - Siblings-

   -My hubby (name?? it's confidential to a certain extent)

   

* Empat jenis ragam manusia yang kamu jumpa hari ini...

   - Hypocrite

   - Poker face

   - Funny

   -Lovable

* Empat misi yang mesti kamu capai tahun ni...

   - Trim my body (MUST!, yet my hubby didn't like this idea)

   - pass my final exam with flying colours!

   - be a better person

   - enter PISMP, hehehe..

* Empat habit buruk kamu....

   - cannot be frank with others

   - easily show my expression..(hard to control)=D

   -lazy (indeed a disease!)

   - eat a lot..(even others said I'm not) hmmm..

* Empat perkara yang kamu fobia...

   -Motorcycle!

   - somehow..cockroach =D

   - make my dad angry =D

   - endless bebelan~

* Empat sebab join contest ni....

   - kinda fun, huhu~

   - someone tagged me

   - muhasabah diri~

   - like these kind of questions, huhu~

that's all...heheh..dunno la how to tag, aiyah~

Miss him so much. Can I fly to Johore instead? :-)

True Friends~

And I'm thankful coz I have true friends, even there are still many fake person that I know too~
these fake person..
only come to me whenever they're in need...
and forget me when they're happy
and badmouthed me at the back..
screw la those type of people! huh~~

Friends~

i'm back everyone!

Assalamualaikum wbt~
pardon me for not updating my blog, quite sometime...
extremely busy with activities n etc~~
now i'm kin of free from assignments, so alright.
i can spend my time blogging,
and read others' blogs~




 i said that i'm busy rite...
yes, i was extremely busy...
piles of assignments, tesl camp, school visit to sipitang,
tesl camp, and many more....

very much exhausted,
yet now, when works are already finished,
and now i feel extremely boring...
huhuh~~


guess i'm workaholic now, somehow~~

stressed and exhausted~

too busy for weeks...
and i'm exhausted..
piled with assignments and programmes etc....
yet somehow i enjoyed this..
rather than spending time alone and doing nothing...
it makes me stress more...~

Earth Hour finally passed,
and an Earth Hour programme was held in our campus..
we have joined the performance and yell competition...
and guess what??
TESL students ruled the competition!
all the groups in our course won, hahah~
and our group had achieved 1st place for the BEST PERFORMANCE!
we had done some and singing,
and my role was an antagonist- the AIR POLLUTANTS~
hehehehe....and I bullied the "MOTHER EARTH", alongside with the other pollutants such as water pollutants, sound pollution, and the RUBBISH, who said the most popular lines on that night-
"WE'RE RUBBISH!"
hahahahahahhahahahaha...
seriously, if u were there with us, you'll laugh..
it's hilarious!
until now, they still remember the lines, huhu..~
i wanted to deliver my lines differently,
with Sailor Moon villains' laugh perhaps...heheh
(imagine....)
yet....I'm extremely shy to do it, huhuh~

there are some technical problems when they announced the winners..
at first, we got the best performance title, and yell too...
yet, they (the organisers) said that they had done some mistakes during the announcement,
and we have to give the other title (and hamper) to the actual winner..
hmmm...
that's alright, 'rezeki' are meant to share..right??huhuhu...

okay...got to continue my work...i don't know when i'm going to update my blog again,
piled with tons of works right now....
yet somehow, don't worry..I will~^^

have an awesome time everyone!

P/s: Sailormoon Villain's evil laugh-HAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~

Onana...what's my name??

.Nur Rena Annissa.

is it my real name???

sorry...no, it's not my real name...

yet somehow it connected to my name..hoho~

seriously..^^

sweet name isn't it??

but...my real name given by my father..

is much sweeter...^_^

it means "the brave and pious light"

sweet..and suits me well, huhu..^^

people who know me,

they know my real name is..

my appearance, my behaviour etc...

but to those who only know me through blog @ social network,

that's okay..

coz all of you can know me through my writings...

and don't worry..

it's the real ME~

call me Nur. Rena. Reen or anything suitable and good to hear..

i'll gladly accept it..~

i just didn't tell my real name here...^_^

a wishful present for our anniversary~

see my point here..???

i wish that guy, the commander... who bravely faced his battalion..

(of coz he is brave, he's  the leader- staff sergeant^^)

to be my present..

yup,

that's him 

he's the one,

and only him ~

My Adam^^

yet i'll only see him when he's back here from Johore..T_T

miss him so much~

~Lonely and Busy Anniversary..~

Happy 2nd Anniversary...~^^
for what??
it's my hubby to-be and me, a.k.a OUR anniversary for being together!
i suppose to be happy, am I???
yet...I'm not..
I do happy and glad that our relationship is still strong,
and stronger each day~ ^_^
love him so much...
yet, in this beautiful and meaningful day,
i sat my MOCK EXAM...
then my first paper is Language Description..
the KILLER paper...huh~

even though my friends are here with me,
smile and laugh with me, but still...
i feel very lonely..
coz it's not meaningful for me to celebrate our anniversary alone, AGAIN~
he's away rite now..
he did called me yesterday...
wished me HAPPY ANNIVERSARY...
and he said best of luck for the upcoming exam,
do the best, and he'll pray for me...
and told me to take care of myself...
i tried to hold my tears,
yet he said something that made my tears flowing like rain as soon as he said them..~

he said these in Malay..
"LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH,
I'LL DO MY BEST HERE, AND YOU SHOULD DO YOUR BEST TOO..
DON'T WORRY ABOUT ME, JUST BE SAFE FOR ME..
I'M SORRY FOR NOT BEING THERE, and....
WAIT FOR ME TO COME HOME, AND I'LL BE THERE FOR YOU.."

i apologized to him for crying again,
for crying like a crybaby..
i know all along..
but now i realized that it's hard for me to find a guy like him ever again...
he's doing my best for his family and me..
and support me to study hard...
i'm thankful for loving someone like him,
and very thankful for having someone like him...

even though it has been a lonely and busy anniversary,
but still..
~I'M THANKFUL FOR EVERYTHING..~

p/s: now craving for cake....secret recipe's cake would be delightful, hmmm..~

True~

one of my most favourite song of all time!
love diz song since its first release, if i'm not mistaken,
when i was in form 2 @form 3~
hoho~
it's been a long time!~


I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
that you belong with me

you might think
I don't look
but deep inside in the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you
mmmm

I'm weak
it's true
cause I'm afraid to know the answer
do you want me too?
cause my heart keeps falling faster

[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line 
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
i'ts time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true

you don't know
what you do
everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move

I'm weak
it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
do you see me too?
do you even know you meant me!

[Chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line 
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
its time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true

I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
the way that's true

[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line 
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
its time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true...^^

Happy Moments~

Huwaaahhhhhh!!!!~

I'm so happy this week!

not only sport's day was already ended,

and our division won 2nd place..(ok laahhh!!)

but also my hubby called me several times, in a week! ^_^

i bet he wants to make amend, since he hasn't call me last week, AT ALL!

but i understand though, and know that he's busy training in a Police Training Center in Johore~

well, 

he called me 2 times on Thursday morning + night (it's IPG's sport's day) and Friday night..~

he promised me that he'll try to call on Sunday, since Monday will be our 2nd year anniversary together..^^

he cannot call on workdays, esp Monday coz he would be really busy at that time,

plus the other 1,500 trainees will also want to use the one and only phone booth (HUH!!)~

miss him a lot...miss him a lot!!

exam is also on Monday..~ T_T

aiyark, i'm so scared....

wish me luck!

 

missing you and loving you out of nothing at all~

yes..i admit that~
i miss my family and him and my hubby a lot...
miss my loved ones a lot,
with my hubby included..
my mum called me this evening..
and she's already make me feel at ease a bit...
love you so much mum~

but him...
he's not calling yet...
i'm waiting like there's no tomorrow here..
he's far away..
separated by the distance and space..
by the south china sea....
i admit,
love makes you like at the top of the world
but to go through it, makes you in so much pain,
like falling down to a floor and hurt yourself..

i'm longing for his voice,
for his smile,
for his gaze while looking at me....
remembering him already made me cry..
aiyaaaaaaaaahhhhhh~

please make him call...
but how???

i should just go to study and focus!
okay...wish me luck!
(and let him call me a.s.a.p...
coz i need him now...)

p/s: and i'm hearing bryan adams-please forgive me...~
.:::please forgive me, i can't stop loving you:::..

Vivacious Time At the Beach!~

after some hardships and busiest time at campus..
finally, we went to the beach-Tanjung Aru!
have so much fun there..hehehe
so many things,
and so many events happened at that time...
but i don't want to say more...
hehehehe~

i don't like our class' situation right now..
why???
coz everyone keeps on keeping their feelings themselves
and slowly killing every one of them~
including me perhaps ~
if you love someone, or hate someone..
just tell the truth!
(right????)
i want to help,but i don't know how..
so i just let it be,
and wait for the next~

so much fun, yet so much secrets~
i wonder how i can handle this...
coz it's slowly killing us too~

btw...MQA files waiting, good luck for me then~
huh~

Please....need a break!

Yup..I do need some break...
from what??
hmmm...from everything~
luckily we're going to beach this afternoon..^^
hehehehe..
by the way, he called last night~
after missing him so much,
my tears flowed, but i didn't let him know..
he'll call, whenever i feel bad,
or miss him badly..
as if he knows...i know he can feel it,
huhuh...^_^

and when i miss so much~
at one time,~
i will get fever,
huh~
and it get worst when he's away~
haiyaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

really need a break,
and i'll only get it for real when
he's back to me~
dear, call me back please...

I'm irrevocably miss you~

Salam Maulidur Rasul~

Assalamualaikum...
salam maulidur rasul to all..^^
always selawat for Rasulullah...
may we got his syafaat~

it's public holiday..
so I'd spent my time today with surfing internet and find some stuff for SS, blogging, facebooking and stalking~
STALKING???
hehehe..kind of,
my buddy and I were currently wondering on something,
thus, we stalked on one of our friend's blog..
just want to find the truth, 
of whom he like the most, hehe~
he's a super nice guy,
women's dream guy..
yet, the path leads to nowhere...


xda keja ne, hahah~

Love...1 litre of joy, pain and tears~

Love..
what is love to you??
consist of alphabets L.O.V.E ~
maybe for..
Lunatic Observation of Vivacious Earthling???
Aaawwwwhhh..
of course not!
love...
i don't know how to say~
it's hard to describe through words,
it's like rojak....mixed with different things, feelings and experiences~
feel it yourself...
with Allah, family, friends, or maybe lovers...
But with love,
this feeling makes me happy,
makes me put all effort in everything I do
and I love myself too..
just the way I am~

love..
it's all about this 1 litre of mixed things
like what I'm feeling right now~

i love someone....and i do love him so much..

i love him with all my heart

love him with all my soul

we've been experienced many things together

and sacrificed many things to make "US" real..

he makes me happy,

he makes me smile everyday,

he makes me miss him when he's away

gives me tons of pain of missing him every single night and day

or misunderstand about something,

and makes me let my tears out

for all the sacrifice, the hardship because of me

or because of him

or makes me sad and sometimes, upset~

the most of all,

he makes me love him unconditionally every single time...

but still, i'm afraid..

i'm afraid to lose him

cause all my feelings left in my heart after the top 3,

(Allah, Rasul and Family)

already given to him~

i don't know why

i'm afraid to love until now~

even though i'd found one,

my other half~

and the most of all..

i'm afraid if this can be the main reason 

that cause me to lose him..

NO!

please Allah.....let our bond lasts for eternity,
let our dreams come true
and bring us to Your "siratul mustaqim"
and make us happy for life~

Dr. Mahathir's Request, and Future Generation's too~

I've got this article from the Star, and I was attracted to it..

 Dr M: Divided Malays risk facing a dim future

KUALA LUMPUR: The Malays will remain weak and their future dim if they continue to be divided by different political ideologies, said former prime minister Tun Dr Mahathir Mohamad.
He said the Malay community is in a weak position because they are now divided into three groups, namely Umno, PAS and Parti Keadilan Rakyat (PKR).
“The present situation will inevitably affect our future,” he said at a “Discourse with Tun Dr Mahathir Mohamad on the Malays and Their Future” held at the Tun Hussein Onn Memorial, here, on Monday.
Dr Mahathir said Malay unity was challenged the first time with the setting up of PAS, a breakaway group from Umno.
“However, we could still control the political situation in the country then, but many (from Umno) who were disappointed later formed other splinter parties like Semangat 46 and PKR.
On how to unite the Malays, Dr Mahathir said: “It’s easy, knock Nik Aziz (Kelantan Menteri Besar Datuk Nik Abdul Aziz Nik Mat) and Anwar (PKR de facto leader Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim) on their heads because they are the ones who brought the disease”.
Dr Mahathir also described the efforts to unite the Malays as coming to a dead end as the two leaders had no desire to see it happen.
“Their intentions are just to secure a place, Anwar with his intention to capture Putrajaya while Nik Aziz is an opportunist,’’ he said.
“When we were poor and weak and had no status, we knew that only unity could give us strength. But today, when we are better off, some feel there is no need for unity; so we end up fighting among ourselves,” added Dr Mahathir.
The former premier said there were also Malays who were so confident of being able to stand on their own that they rejected the New Economic Policy which was created to assist them.
“There are those who say there’s no need to be identified with the Malays, that ‘we are Malaysians, we can reject efforts to help us, we want to throw away the crutch and we want to stand on our own’, without realising that they are still ‘limping’,” he said.
On the issue of Malay supremacy, Dr Mahathir said Malays need not continue claiming that they were “masters”, when in fact they were the “servants” of others. — Bernama

To be exact, what the former minister want is o gain back our unity as a powerful Malay race.. Like he said before,
'Melayu Mudah Lupa'..
Yes, some of the Malays and Bumiputras forgotten their roots, their history..
Their ancestor's effort to get Independence, and many lives were lost
to get what we have now.

I'm not going to be a politician, I won't.
I'm a person who loves her nation, her country,
and history~
I will continue this someday, just wait for the next article..~

Miranda Cosgrove-Kissing You~^_^

I like this song~
Cause it has joyful rhythm,
simple, youthful lyrics,
and I enjoy it a lot..
Maybe some people may find that this song is quite ordinary and childish,
but hey, a good song should be a song that all people can follow and easy to catch up right??
Well..let's sing together..^_^

Sparks fly
It's like electricity
I might die
When I forget how to breathe
You get closer and there's
No where in this world I'd rather be
Time stops
Like everything around me
Is frozen
And nothing matters but these
Few moments when you open my mind to things
I've never seen


'Cause when I'm kissing you
My senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece
I've been trying to find
Falls right into place
You're all that it takes
My doubts fade away
When I'm kissing you


When I'm kissing you
It all starts making sense
And all the questions
I ve been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes
When I'm kissing you


Past loves
They never got very far
Wall's up, made sure
I guarded my heart
And I promise I wouldn't do this till
I knew it was right for me


But no one (no one)
No guy that I met before
Could make me (make me)
Feel so right and secure
And have you noticed
I lose my focus
And the world around me disappears


'Cause when I'm kissing you
My senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece
I've been trying to find
Falls right into place
You're all that it takes
My doubts fade away
When I'm kissing you


When I'm kissing you
It all starts making sense
And all the questions

I've been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes
When I'm kissing you


I've never felt nothing like this
You're making me open up
No point in even trying to fight this
It kinda feels like it's love


Cause when I'm kissing you
My senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece
I've been trying to find
Falls right into place
You're all that it takes
My doubts fade away
When I'm kissing you


When I'm kissing you
It all starts making sense
And all the questions
I've been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
Crystal clear it become
When I'm kissing you~

Today was a fairytale..~

Fell in love with this song all of the sudden~


Today was a fairytale, you were the prince
I used to be a damsel in distress
You took me by the hand, and you picked me up at six
Today was a fairytale, today was a fairytale

Today was a fairytale, I wore a dress
You wore a dark gray t-shirt
You told me I was pretty when I looked like a mess
Today was a fairytale

Time slows down whenever you're around
But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there

It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale

Today was a fairytale
You've got a smile that takes me to another planet
Every move you make, everything you say is right
Today was a fairytale

Today was a fairytale
All that I can say is now it's getting so much clearer
Nothing made sense until the time I saw your face
Today was a fairytale

Time slows down whenever you're around
Yeah yeah

But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there

It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale

Time slows down whenever you're around
I can feel my heart, it's beating in my chest
Did you feel it?
I can't put this down

But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way

But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there

It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
Today was a fairytale~